There's just days that you feel so weak you can barely fake a smile.
Or you get mad easily just because someone was so happy while you can't be.
And there's a time where you feel so exhausted from all the shit in life,
and you want to shut the world out, close your room, turn off the light and cuddle on your bed with your favorite pillow.
And then your mind starts to wander..
Where are my friends?
I need them.
And then there's still no one to reach out. Still no one to talk with.
Then someone will come to your life as if it was already planned.
You guys will start to build something from the nothingness.
You will feel special. For a moment you are special..
And your world will live up again and would spray out more colors!
And then.. at the verge of that happiness,
That someone would suddenly vanish..
And there ya go..
Back in that dark room with mind wondering why people leave even after promising that they'll stay..