Mutual understanding is common nowadays. It's having the same feeling towards each other but doesn't have commitment. Commitment is a serious thing which mostly people nowadays are afraid. Afraid of getting attached too much but will only end up being broken inside and out. I, too, am afraid of it. I never really thought of myself being in a real relationship. I always think that all of my feelings are just infatuation. I sometimes thought that I have Gamophobia, Agliophobia or even Philophobia.
But I was wrong. The way I think about love changed when I met this boy. He's funny and handsome. His eyes are shining like the stars, his lips are soft like my favorite marshmallows, his face is just perfect and his body? Well, it's irresistible even though he has baby fats. We have a lot in common, we're like even best friends. We both love food, we have the same sense of humor, we love being with each other and , oh, we have the same situation with our families. Our families doesn't want us to be together. You know why? Because we're too young! But you can't sunder those who are really in love. Don't get me wrong, we've tried being apart from each other because we want to choose our families but there's just something that keeps on pulling us back together. People are saying "if that's true love, you'll end up together soon." bla bla bla we don't believe in that. If it's really true love? Then we wouldn't let anyone destroy our relationship just because it is not yet good in their eyes.
I will never waste my time. I will make this few months worth it while we're still going to the same school. He'll be sent to another school next school year. His mother works there that's why numerous of students there know him. Her mother always brag about her son's "handsomeness". There's one girl who keeps on asking for a picture of her and Gabriel. But I told Gabriel from the start that i don't want other girls to do my role. I'm the jealous type.
3 months are too short. Honestly, I'm afraid. I'm afraid that he might like somebody else, i'm afraid that we'll might break up and our memories and sacrifices will become a waste and i'm afraid that he might replace me because I know from the start that i'm not irreplaceable. There are a lot of girls prettier than me , smarter than me, and better than me. But there's something for sure nobody can replace, it's my love for him. I loved him even when he hurt me too much that i can't even bear the pain, i love him now even if I know we will soon to be separate and I will love him even when he'll be happy with somebody else.
I love him too much that i chose to be blind of the fact that my love for him will slowly kill me. I chose to sacrifice. He is all I ever wanted, and he will always be what I need. And so, I will write a letter for you, my love. And that letter, will be the first and last. Just please, promise me , you'll not let go.