Seeking peace

I'm lying on my bed
Thinking those stupid things I did.
I kinda terrified of my thoughts
Any minute, I lost
Drowning of "what If's and Why's" in my life
Questioning If It's worth to fight
Alone in the dark Killing the monster
I don't know If I win over
My strength got so weak
How can I defense myself If I'm on the nest.
I wanted to fly and let my wings take me.
Oh God! I'm longing for freedom to set me free.