Sharmaji ke bete ka suitcase

Have you ever been let down by someone? Or  Have you let someone down? If you have been alive for more than even a decade the answer to both these questions would probably be a 'yes'.  That's normal because we are humans. We are supposed to do and feel all these things.But have you ever been rejected? By your company, your loved ones, your teachers , your anyone , in merit, in love,in being an ideal kid, in being a successful person? It's like carrying a suitcase your whole life and never being able to put it down because no one wants any part of it and you need someone to accept you as you are to be able to put that down.Your burden is heavy and you are yourself probably a burden to so many people and oh ! what they won't do to give you away with! You feel stuck. Your goddamn suitcase was supposed to contain what other 'ideal' people's suitcases contain in general. Success, higher degrees from nice institutions, more higher degrees, stamped passports(non-honeymoon destinations lol) , good and desirable spouse (again having an equally or more ideal suitcase than yours), more salary, cute kids ,large home, a mountain of money and so on. The contents of the suitcase are decided by the society and they would accept no less or no different list of items.And your loved ones will be manipulated by them to believe that. If you do not have it, your own loved ones may be not willing to look you in your eyes, because being like 'Sharmaji ka beta/beti' is the goal for you. They actually might care for you because you know, once you stay with pets or even any living thing , you get a feeling for them too.They can't swallow, they can't spit. Rejection is what you got, and it hurt, so much so that you lie awake at night staring at the ceiling thinking and praying that next life you may have the ideal suitcase or maybe you should have the will to fill the ideal suitcase like others. This life it's not your goal. You were never meant to have it in the first place. You will never be a 'Sharma ji ka beta/beti'. Maybe Sharma ji ka beta can take a chill pill and give the same to the people around them. You are trying to do your best and it's you who will fill your own suitcase however mediocre that may be. And you were never meant to make others happy before making yourself happy. Stop living in the shadows and Let that sink in.