SHE is THERE

                  -- SHE is THERE --
                       "A memoir"

Relaxing in the rain drops, with a perfect view from the balcony rolls a bundle of emotions. You feel that someone is standing right behind you, with a plate full of crispy snacks for the pleasant evening. You look around and it's a blow of wind onto your face, making you realise that she was there.

Coming back home is not that easy as your eyes are searching for that happy face which you used to find in one of your "hide-n-seek" spots. Moving ahead, you enter a space which is perhaps still scented with her aura, as the first thing you see are the tiny chits, nicely pasted on decorated walls saying, "LIVE YOUR DAY, LIKE IT'S YOUR LAST!!"
You sit down waiting for her to listen to all your interesting stories. Sooner or later, you miss making her laugh on any of your silly jokes.

Sometimes it's so tough to face the reality. You feel strange and suffocated, and these symptoms lead you to go out to escape from a disaster. It again reminds you of the days, when going on those speedy long drives with that Eminem rap used to keep the feet moving, and then she slowly changing the playlist to Coldplay songs, to set the mood right for the enjoyable evening.
 
But for now, all this feels a bit irrelevant that I have given it up. On random locations, I though stop to talk and make myself understand that "missing mishap". In that pause and play of the moment, I push myself hard to believe the truth that she is gone, now and forever.

Today,lying on the couch upside-down seeing the fan revolve, it seems life has  sneaked a long way. The search for some positive vibes is consoled when people talk about "her" magnetic smile which has left a mark on their mind, uptill now!

Indications of insomnia makes it more miserable, when at 3'o clock you cannot find that person, who used to peep from the door of what he is doing up so late.
But yes, a blink of eye and it felt as if she was there.
It still feels she is there.
I know she will be there....
I hope she would be there....
*for now and forever*
#honest