SHE LOST HERSELF

Little by little she's becoming the girl she never wanted. That all of the words that were spoken to her were suddenly slowly becoming her. The names that were once tagged to her were now becoming true. She herself don't understand. She herself is hurting inside.  She herself don't want to feel nor to be those names. But now little by little she's becoming a monster. She does not know how to easily forgive anymore . She was just hurting inside by the same person all over again. And suddenly she felt the numbness because what she feels is nothing but hatred. She cannot even talk to that person right.  She does not want it but she cannot help but to do it. She does not want it because it gives her more pain to know that she is hurting the person she loves. She is in pain in not respecting that person but the spontaneous respond of her body is disrespectful. Little by little she's becoming not her. Little by little she is being destroyed. Until she lost herself and her identity.