Amazing... and terrible.. how everyone around you is happy and great. And you are there ..all awful.
You have your friends and cousins and siblings and colleagues and whoever, they are happy, they are in love, some are dating, some are smiling, some are spending high, and just everyone seems perfect.
We act sober. we are happy for them. Of course! we love them. we want them to smile and laugh. we hug them about their happiness, compliment them, how they remain happy and etc nonsense.
but there is a drunken sad you inside you.. who don't get this shit, who gets pissed off whenever someone is getting something you long for every minute of the day, when someone is describing their kiss to you and you think why the hell should he or she be having it.. that you are way more deserving of the joy and happiness.
Every smile and laugh or blushing makes you want to scream and run to the hills..because that not so sober is tired of waiting and wanting and needing and not getting. You wanna shout at everyone to fucking keep their happiness to themselves. That you wanna hide in a dark place and cry to eternity because you can't take it.
But the sober you controls the drunken sad you.. it gives you hope of thinking that as these people have gotten what you want.. you will get it too because they wanted same stuff as well.. and now they got it. And that you have to wait for the right time. That you have wait for the right guy or girl. The drunken sad you want to just turn into a bitchy rude and whatnot person, but your sober you.. calms it.
So even though this world seems cruel..but
love is it's only fuel..
And so listen to the Sober You. . for whatever it says..it'll all be true.
And even though you have hard time believing in you.
There is something great and good, believe me on this one, that's just for you.
Have A Wonderful Life
xo
kjo