Step Into Reality

I wandered in a place full of grief,

Why do lost souls souls surrender in defeat?

Am I one of them? Am I lost?

And will I soon fade into dust?

The scars of the past already faded,

I tried to hide it, I've always hated.

When will the pain in my chest heal?

'Cause I wanted this nightmare to be over for real

I smiled at them, a fake one

But when will this pretending be done?

To be honest, I don't know.

I forgot how to smile like I used to show.

If you only know what I remember,

Every time I cried in the shower,

Every time I see my reflection,

I pity myself and hate this vision.

I tried to forget the pain I am having

I can feel the alcohol in my stomach burning.

I felt so wasted, but never been this happy,

Although I knew that this was only temporary.

Who deserves this kind of sadness?

Should I show love a little less?

Now I learnt that the world is unfair,

I suddenly became numb and didn't care.

This was a selfish act but it helps to heal,

Be the heartless monster or be the one who's killed.

Now I know why the lost souls surrendered,

Pain i always present, which is why it didn't matter.

Pain isn't new, but what is this?

Should I stop now or should I take the risk?

I finally decided to feed my curiosity,

And then I saw myself, stepping into reality.

-n.r.-