Still in day 1
And every minute feels like torture.
I had a chance to be with my mother today— just the two of us. I am so sorry mom. I know you worked hard for everything that made me stand up in this point— well at least that's what you see, but really, i am falling apart. I am falling into pieces. Behind these met expectations is my longing for true success and happiness; something that i can call mine, something that i wish to have. I am sorry mom. Please know that you haven't made anything wrong. You are the best mom in the whole world, and i am sorry if i can't be the best daughter you have. I love you mom, please never blame yourself in anything. Please do me a favor, pleasa take care of nanay. Go to Paris and now, it is time to enjoy your life. Bring my ashes with you as you go to the city of love. I love you mom, and i am so sorry. I am sorry if i would be disappointing you. Thank you so much for everything, words would never be enough for me to express how much i appreciate everything you do. I love you mom, please always remember that. Please dont lose your mind. It is all my fault. I just hate myself that much that i want to run away from me. I love you mom. And again, i am so sorry.