To Winnie the Pooh

Sadness is going to keep me company for many nights and days, pain actually became a better friend than those i have had for years, loneliness has built walls around me that i always want my head to slam upon, insecurity has been the blanket that encapsulated me turning cold days colder, this is me since you left.

I am more willing to suffer pain than see you unhappy with me. Because somehow, the screams of my agony are overpowered by the happiness you currently have in your heart as i am not anymore in it.  You see, the dead weight of legs from the sleeping pills, the dizziness from the alcohol, the soft throbbing of pulse as blood pumps out form the wrists, is nothing in comparison to the dead weight of my heart as it tries harder to beat, the dizziness of my mind from the thought of not having you back to me again, and the soft throbbing of pulse as it seeks for physical pain for i cannot handle the pain in my chest as it swoons with the echoes of a heartbeat. 

But throughout this negativity, i want you to remember that i love you. and in the cage of sadness i am in, i am willing to set you free as i do not have any right to imprison you from your happiness. i could still be your friend in centuries, you can even call me in a different lifetime. i can be your home, but i am not sure if you would be willing to stay for a night for the four walls i have built before suffocated you. my arms are the warmest blankets that would ever encapsulate you, but i also doubt if you are interested in a blanket that finds a hard time in letting go of your fragile body. amidst the negativity i became, remember that i love you and i am sacrificing my own happiness just for the sake of yours. 

i am letting you go, not because i don't love you anymore, but because i have tried to keep you but it did not do any good to you. i am letting you go because i love you.