the story of my life

since i was a kid i lived an ignorant  live, i grew up alone , no one cares about me . i felt like my existance has no meaning in this life , when that happened i started to hide away from people , not only that but i started to be afraid of them . however , my parents weren't there for me to give me a hand they also they destructed me . they were telling people and my family that i'm weak and shy and dumb straight through my face i heard them many times but i held all the pain in my heart . i grew up with this pain , the pain of ignorance and loneliness  i've never had a friend neither in the neighborhood nor in the school.in addition that i was beaten so many times by bunch of students because i was weak and no one ever defended me or known something about me.finally i decided to hate all of the people around me including my family i never told anyone about the pain i felt and i'm still feeling up till now and hope to die and not to try to explain to someone how i feel .