Strangers with memories

Its been a long time since i have written something. Well, i only write when im not able to express what i feel to the one who needs to know about it. I write when my heart aches. I write when i am lost. I write to find myself. I write to answer myself.
We meet a really lot of people in our life and not everyone stays, but when someone leaves they leave behind either a good or bad memmory with us. There are a very few people to whom we get too attached without even knowing the reason. We say that love is self less right. So what does that mean? It means that we should show love to someone without expecting anything in return....which includes even love. Yes we should never expect love in return if we do so it seems like some sort of trade right. Try saying i ll love you only if you love me. Sounds like some sort of business doesnt it. 
We never know when people come into our life and when they leave, all we know is the time spent and the memories made that is all we have. There are so many people out there who dont even talk to the person whom once they called thier best friend. It happens in many lives and that is really not the hardest part. The hardest part is that, that person is walking around right in front of you everyday and all you need to do is pretend that you dont care and that you dont even know that they exist when everyone around you knows the history of you two. When people come and ask you what happened between you guys, you got to smile and tell nothing and not let that drop of tear fall of your eyes.
You dont lose that person in that fraction of second but you have been losing that person part by part all along the way and the worst part is that you dont even know since when and why
The memories that used to make you smile starts to haunt your sleepless nights. The songs that made  you feel happy starts to break you now. The places that were hangout spots are now your nightmares. You dont just move on.....you breakdown a thousand times before you move on...you push yourself throughout every day fighting back your tears and faking a smile before this world. You tell yourself that you are stronger than this every day. Moving on isnt forgeting but it is accepting the reality and going ahead and it takes a really long process. Be ready to fall and make yourself strong enough to get up again all by yourself cause the hands that were there to once hold you are no longer available and you are once again strangers but this time with memories.