If you’re reading this then I have come at ease that you no longer are part of my life, that you walked off without giving me an explanation.
Each time I look back at our laughs, our moments, our smiles I wonder…
How did we come to this?
How did we become strangers… again?
Yet, I do believe that everything has it’s own reasons and it’s part of our path for us to be apart, even though the reason remains unknown to me. We were madly in love so how did we get to this?
I have no doubt that all the times you told me you loved me, all the times you said you were going to stay by my side forever, you meant them. You didn't expect to leave. You meant those words. It’s just that it wasn’t meant for us to walk hand in hand till the end.
Though I hated you, couldn’t stand you and felt shattered as you walked away, I built myself up again and learnt to deal with that piercing pain, with that blank space you left behind. You were my home and as you walked out I felt impotent and lost. Nowhere to go, no one to call at 6am. Alone, lonely, sparkling and broken with a torturing and tearing pain. Though it was your right to go, I could not handle the thoughts of you being away.
But, I am strong, independent and I learned that I don’t need anyone to rely on but myself. I don’t need another home than my bones and body. I don’t need to call anyone. I dried those tears and moved on too.
No one can take your place. Not now, not in a million years. No one can replace you. No one can be as special as you.
Nevertheless, I will find someone who’ll love me and this time… I just might not let him go.