One day, you'll eventually understand life. You'll get to know why it didn't work out the first time you tried. You'll learn to accept that things really happen for a reason. You'll slowly appreciate the art of living in this world. You'll be able to smile with the memories you've created.
You'll learn to accept the mere fact that moving on is an ongoing process. That letting go is not a curse but rather a gift. That forgiving people doesn't mean that you're giving the chance to hurt you again but rather giving them an opportunity to redeem themselves. That trusting again is not as hard as it seems to be. That loving is not as painful as it is supposed to be. There is always something out of nothing. There is always a rainbow after the rain. There's this bright morning after your darkest night. There's a big smile after your endless cries. There's hope waiting after your endless fights.
No, life is not unfair. You just have to pick your battle. No, life is not ugly, you just have to pick your dream. This is no better day to start. Just do it. No need to to wait. I know that better days are coming, you just have to try it. Make it today, if not. try another day.
You have to end the sadness and try to focus . Try to accept that there is no better excuse to be happy than to just be happy. If you wish to be happy, then smile. Just smile more. Give them the reason to wonder why you're like that. Make it exciting . Give them something to talk about. Make them believe that you are stronger than your storm. That you're stronger than your demons. That you're better than your shadow. That you're not the woman they are thinking of you.
You are wonderful piece of art.