Tales from the Bar

The last time i threw up was the first time i went into a bar, that night i promised myself that i'm gonna drink as many shots to the point i can't take anymore to ease the pain of a brokenheart. 

You see we always associate alcohol to problems like it's the only friend we can run to when everything falls apart or a medicine that takes away the memories for a while. 

1 long term effect of drinking too much alcohol is brain damage like memory loss, maybe that's why we binge drinking when we want to erase the way he smiles, his laughter, his voice, the way he like books and everything about him, yet by the morning the pain of your hangover will make you remember everything and like a restart, you're back to zero again.

Even a small amount of alcohol has an affect on your body. Like how you affect me when we're just inches away from each other. Your mere existence affects me. 

When humans drink, a tiny amount of alcohol exits the body in the urine and breath. Like how i still tend to share our stories, unconciously saying your name, about us, you were with me for a tiny amount of time yet when you left you were in every breath i take and exhale.

When you came into my life, like the effect of alcohol i wasn't able to think clearly, remember the first time i met you i was so random, our conversation was all over the place. 

You interfere with my life balance. I wasn't able to walk straight through my plans anymore, you weren't part of my plans back then. 

Drinking too much can weaken your immune system, I was once immune to commitments and love, but you came. 

I became dependent on you, emotionally and physically, i thought i always need you. 

I thought.

It's amazing how the excessive drinking produces scars to the liver, too much of you produced scars to me too. 

And do you know the reason why people puke? It's because the stomach is already filled up, and i'm already filled up with everything that you do to the point i wanna throw you up but i can't. 

Sometimes, i regret that first night i went into a bar

when i throw up and met you. 

Sometimes i just wanna drink as many vodka shots as i can to forget that we met, to undo you in my life.

A single episode of heavy drinking can cause trouble for your heart,

that single event of meeting you caused trouble to my heart.

And i wish another shot of tequila can take away everything, but it can't, and i'm still trying, still learning, to disattach you, the us in very bar i went to and every time i drink alcohol i wish i am not thinking of you.