Terrified

You have no idea how much this love is almost killing me.

It hurts because I wanted to held those hands. I wanted to know how they fit perfectly to mine.

It hurts because I want us to share in the same symphony.

It hurts because I wanted you to stare at me the way I do secretly.

And it hurts more for we are in this saddest part that only in my mind there could have a you and me.

You. You. Only you. How you talk. How you walk.
I could only see you.
Your smile. Quick glimpse. They lingers up to the remainder of the day.
Your eyes. Contagious laugh. They always left me in a rhapsody.
All and every words you spoke so beautifully,
All of that was a euphoria to me.

But what's holding me back?
Fear. Doubt. The uncertain tomorrow. The maybe's. And all of what ifs.

How could I ever try when every words are getting in the way?
I can't get rid of the demon inside that keeps on scaring me.

How you came unexpectedly could mean a sudden goodbye.
I'm scared of all the promises. It really sounds lie.
I feared falling in love because the possibility that falling out of it is always on the other side.

It could have been a perfect You and I.
But I can only have you in my mind.