The after math of love.

Just when I opened up once again, even after the millions of times you've betrayed me, you gave me another million reasons why I shouldn't have done that in the first place. Oh darling, I'm so so far away from being shocked or envious of what you have, I've grown past every emotion I've ever felt for you, now all that's left is an endless void, it'll stay forever. When I was too busy giving my everything to you, you were too busy collecting all of it. You changed me, for the better and for the worse. This still does not change how much I love you, because I know no one could make everything just as special as you made it for me. Your mind is a beautiful place, you are so much more beautiful than you'd ever know. But just that proud façade of yours, where you think you're the best there ever was and will be, humbleness could've made all of that true. Even if it has been unknowingly that you've hurt me, doesn't change that I've been hurt. All the times I had to fight myself for you, all the time I gave you, just faded away into the past. But the memories you've given me, even you cannot take it away. Everything we've done together, everything you've done for me will always have a special place in my heart. But it is also disturbingly true how I'm not your first choice anymore even when I still want to fall in your arms and forget everything I've ever known and just restart. I'm not shocked or hurt anymore, just disappointed with how things have changed with time. I should've known, if I could've been better than someone you've known longer, there will be someone else who'll come along, someone better, someone who will keep you happier. Maybe you understand what my love for you is, maybe you don't. Maybe after all you've heard from me, things won't stay the same. But by opening up to you for one last time, I know that no matter who comes along now, you won't forget me. I'm sorry, this hurt you. I don't want you to hurt. I'd take you in my arms and made sure you weren't hurting, but I'm not so sure you'd like that anymore. Remember, I'll always love you and have your back, but the trust we built and broke will never be repaired. Let's be damaged this way, it's better than faking that we're both fine. I wish the best for you. I miss the person who you used to be and there's no bringing that back. Love is so strange. Look what it did to us. You were better than the best, better than the dream. Were.

- To the bond between two souls that wasn't meant to last