Goodbye.
This is the hardest part of one's relationship. It's the part in which you have to walk away with pain and pride. Loving is wonderful. I have no doubt with that. But sometimes you just have to let go. Not because you no longer love the person but it's more of you don't think that your love is enough for that person.
It's not you, it's me.
That's the sweetest line I could give to her. It's not that I do not love her anymore ' cause I fucking do. However, I have to love myself too. I don't deserve to be treated less than my worth. I am worth more than just a dime of her attention and her leftover affection.
Lying is a crime for me. Cheating is a disease. I don't normally walk away just for nothing. I just don't think fixing things on my own won't make us better. I have to give way, again.
I believe that people seek attention from others if their partners can no longer meet their needs. But isn't it unfair ? Do you agree? If you are no longer happy with your current commitment might as well have some respect and end it before jumping to another bed. It's disgusting how people do that. I can't begin to imagine. But they do that. Then they will come back to you with that angelic face and tell you that you are the only one . Fuck that!
Before I met this person that I am leaving today, I was in a tragic relationship. Same story. Oldschool. She loved me and happened to love somebody else too while she was inlove with me. It's hilarious yet it's true. This is the story of my life.
I don't think they do understand that I may be mean most of the time, that I talk too big for my size but I also have a heart.
I am loyal to those who are loyal to me. And I hate people who cheat just to satisfy their cravings. Relationship is a two-way road. Learn how to respect. I just don't get it . And I am just so tired trying to understand all things. I just have to end it this way.
I've lost so many people in my life. I had multiple failed relationships and I am way confident that this won't make any difference.
This line is for you,
Yes. I love you. And I will love you untill my heart asks me not to love you anymore. I don't blame you for hurting me. I blame myself for trusting you. I blame myself for believing that you're different which infact I was mistaken. I still want you to be happy. I know you hate it when I say that I wish you all the blessings in this world but I actually mean it. I hope at some point you'll be able to reflect so that when the next heart knocks on your door you wouldn't have to commit the same mistake. I hate to lose you but I hate more to lose myself for caring too much. Your layered lies won't make us grow as partners. It'll only drag us to hell. I don't want to sink that low. I have to do this for myself.
Thank you though. Thank you for making me feel that I am way stronger than I thought of myself. I bid you farewell. This is my way out. My art of letting go.