Have you ever had a black dog?
No, not the literal black dog. Symbolism.
The blackdog, now you get it? Okay good.
Oh I meant, not so good..
I don't know how to start writing this up. To what approach I should do, or to what extent I should say.
For everyone who has a black dog, one thing I can say, we all feel the same.
Standing in a crowded room, yet you feel alone.
Smiling in the dinner table, yet you feel empty.
Laughing, chuckling, doing your daily routine. But at the end of the day, something's swallowing you up..
Night. Dark. Emptiness. Alone. And a mind full of fucked up thoughts.
'Do you even have any worth?'
'Guess what, people would end up leaving you.'
'Look at the smile you did a while ago, the fake one.'
'Hey, what if you search online how to make a peaceful end?'
'Should you try making a letter for them? The one they'll discover behind your cold self?'
Then there you are. Eyes getting blurry, tears streaming down. Ha! The black dog is here again.. as it never seem to leave.
'Should I listen to it?'
'There's still people who loves me.'
'I don't want to disappoint my family.'
'They love me.'
'I'm not alone.'
'I can do this.'
'And even if I can't, I should.'
'God is with me.'
Right. That's definitely right.
Never listen to all the craps your sinful mind is whispering. Make your faith, love, and positivity be louder than that voice inside you.
Even if you get to hear it, never listen to it. You're not alone, you are loved and you are definitely worth it.
Remember this, there is no other person inside you, it's just you, and you is positive, you is loved, you is worth it, so you should live.
Say this:
Yes, I have a black dog, it's with me during my downfall, it's with me during my success, it's with me whenever i'm stressed, it's with me, it has always been with me, but I never listen to it. It's just there, and I make it out of place.
I have a black dog, and i'm still fine.
I am fine.
And i'll always be fine.