“Our conversations are shortened nowadays. We hardly chat. Her photos that used to smile all over my camera rolls are now locked and hidden on some folders of my laptop.
Missing her is my habit, unchangeable and constant, but mind has started to hit on some heart beats and keeps on reminding to forget her. When my two legs march to cross the main road of Anamnagar, they miss the other two legs which used to cross together, but somehow they don’t stop as if they have begun to understand the situation now.
When a girl smiles at me with her mouth full of Panipuri as I look down from the balcony, I miss that killer smile for which I was mad, but then realize, it leads to the monsoon of tears in some days. So I never smile back.
Whenever I go to the temple where I used to pray for her to be mine, I miss that prayer, but then I realize, God listens someone else’s prayer for her and not mine. So I return with a “Take Care” to God.
Sometimes, I visit to our institute, our class, where we used to spend the whole day after everyone’s departure, I miss her sweet tone, I visualise her images and I miss the moments in which I used say “sorry” bending on my knees, then I feel those days are only a dream now. So at a gallop I escape from that place.
Yes! In every sunsets I miss her and nights are default juncture for the thoughts about her and those moments. Morning feels completely tough as heart never obeys to believe she’s now gone and that togetherness was a dream of night which I just slept.
Now, when I first uninstall messenger and then install again after 2-3 days, yet get the same messages stored in it, I feel someone was same even after some ups and downs.”
I think all these things when I come to this coffee shop where we used to come. When I see the vacant chair next to me, I feel if someone would come and sit on it, not only for today but for all the times I come here. As drawn into thoughts, my cup of coffee just fell on the ground resulting to several fragments. Waiter came and collected. Now I wish if someone comes in my life and collects me in fragments, heals my broken heart and never lets me fall again.