The Numbers of your Unfaithfulness

8 letters and 2 words.
That's how easily you ended up my life.

You brewed a cup of coffee and looked at my face with the eyes of realization, and in that moment I knew. You came up compelling an argument that will end up having you leaving me.

You stated all my flaws and tell me how you hated them regardless of the fact that you said you adore me for who I am.

I hate you, I hate you to death but i didn't do anything, I didn't defend myself upon your pointless allegations, I stared blankly at you, like how I always did all those years that'll always make your heart melt but this time. IT DON'T WORK ANYMORE.

And that's when I shook my head in your chest and started bursting my tears. But my love? How can you not care after all? I've given my life, time and effort for you. I quit my job because you said you didn't like it, I sacrifice the weekends visiting my family because you said it's too far and you're always tired. I stopped seeing my friends for I believe they're no good for our relationship. I forget about my hobbies especially writing, you told me it's a waste of time, and yes I followed everything for my love for you is greater than my happiness.

What kind of eyes do you have for being blind upon all my sacrifices for you? What kind of heart do you have for not feeling the ache I felt right now? What kind of love did you promise me?

We lasted for more than 8 years and in that morning​, I can't​ figure out whether you're still the man I fell in love with.

My mom was right, "he can be a good man and a great husband, but if he's not into you, he's not into you"

Damn, I wish I could turn back and choose all the people that hinders our relationship for they're the ones who loved me the most.
And now I know,
It's never the time that measures the love, you can be in 8 years relationship and end it all of a sudden, you can​ be in 1 month and felt everything.

Every morning is still a tug of war between moving forward and wishing you'll come back again and I'm still homesick of your hugs and kisses but you're under different home now.

"WE'RE DONE", It's so hard but I see you're happy with someone else now. I still love you but I know you aren't coming back.

Maybe I'm not Elsa but later someday, I'LL LET YOU GO.