The Pain of Unreciprocated Love

Their eyes didn't glimmer when they first found their way to each other.
There was no dramatic sign,
No pretending to be fine,
Nothing that had them bind.

There wasn't any love at all
Until it was all there was.

Time made that love grew.
Time mercilessly intensified it so much it hurts.

Time is to blame, she thought.

She's supposed to be happy because she heard that love can make the world go round.

She wasn't happy.

Because it's the kind of love no one wants to know,
The kind of affection no one wants to grow,
The kind of fondness that would just make the tears flow,
The kind of feeling you would just want to let go.

The unreciprocated love
The one-sided love story
The she-love-him-he-doesn't kind of novel.

He was just once a stranger
She didn't even notice him when he walked past her.

Until fate kidded.

Fate made her notice him making all others blur.
Fate gave her that pain-to-be without a cure.
Whether he would feel the same way she's not sure.

But one thing's certain,
There's no other choice but to give in.

No, it's not Time.
Fate is to blame, she thought.

She loved him from afar.
She never knew that human can feel pain and delight, regret and satisfaction, hate and love all at the same time.

His name became the only word that matters.
His name became the only lyric she kept on singing. She couldn't hear anything else.
Maybe she didn't want to.
Was she deaf?
Maybe not, because she clearly can still hear the sound of his name.

Only his name.

Was it selective hearing, she didn't know.
She didn't care.

Then she realized,
She joined this love game.
She gave in to her feelings when he came.
She chose to hear nothing else but his name.

So she decided,
It's not time nor fate.
It's her.
She only has herself to blame.

His name became her favorite song.
The mere mention of his name
Made her go insane
Insanity that was all in vain
Because one day he would go away
And when she knew, it was too late.
He was gone leaving her with only his name.

His name in her head.

His name that haunted her whenever she went to bed.

A name that flooded her eyes with tears and dread.

A name that's everywhere to be read.

Making her heart, all of her so dead.