Have you ever felt suffocated while in the company of your friends, have you ever felt left out and not paid attention to. Have you ever felt lonely in a room full of people. If you have it's alright, I've been there and I know you are questioning everything you've known so far in life. I've realized that in life we come across a lot of temporary people, people whom you meet in school, college or maybe even in social gatherings. Sometimes you just click, some other times you are just left with bad hangover the next day, and I've had the latter more. At one point my life became so complicated and I was no longer in control, it felt as if I'm living the life of someone else. I felt confused, pathetic and miserable. I had to get my life together. The realization is the most painful part of the process, the rest gets easier once you've accepted everything. The first step to getting back on track is getting rid of all the unwanted distraction, aka nosy people. Removing people from life is not as easy as removing someone from your friend list. It can be difficult, but it's necessary. I've grown used to moving on from such people. You can judge me by saying "she is such a bitch" or "how can someone be so cold". I don't disagree with either of this, but sometimes it is essential that we remove certain people because it's no longer necessary that we maintain contacts with them. Yes they might be part of some of your most cherished memory. But I believe that holding on to something toxic just because once they were important to you is pointless.
So many of our minds have been clogged by the belief that as teenagers we need to be part of a cool gang or we need to have our own clique! It's so not true! Rather than having a social image I prefer my sanity. I don't wish to live up to their expectations, I don't wish to be part of something because everybody does it. I'm an independent individual, I have my own preferences and my own space. Sometimes I might stand out in the crowd and it might look odd. But I don't mind my oddity, infact I embrace it.
You don't have to always try to fit in, just be yourself and the world will adjust.
This mantra has worked for me all these years, partly because there was a time when I thought that popularity was important, it took me sometime to realize that the world doesn't always wish to see your good side, if you move with the crowd you'll be stomped on, so I suggest you take the road less taken, because that made all the difference for me.
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