How do I tell you that you've changed?
Actually, that's the hardest question to answer as far as I can imagine.
You've been the sweetest lover I ever had. The most beautiful man I have ever seen. The thing is, I don't know how can I be that "woman" better than all of your exes when all I know is to be myself.
You were always honest of what you feel. You have always been honest on what you want to say. But, these past few days, you've been so quiet. To the point where I am trying to pick the lock on your brain just for me to know what you really are thinking inside.
I can't reach you.
Yes, it was really hard reaching you.
No matter how much I try, it's been too hard these days. My brain feels fuzzy and dizzy but I can't tell you that because on those minimal times when I can reach you, I would rather spend those hours talking to you rather than telling you how hurt I am.
Because seriously? How do you tell the person you love that you're hurt?
How do you tell the person you love that you feel ignored?
How do you tell the person you love that you feel alone?
How do you tell the person you love that you are jealous?
How do you tell the person you love that you feel like the world is dragging all troubles in you?
How do you tell the person you love that you feel like dying inside?
How do you tell the person you love that you need them?
I need you.
If only I can say those words without holding back.
If only I can utter those words like nothing is bothering me inside.
If only I can... reach you, I could have had the courage to say it.
But, how am I supposed to deliver this to you when every time I call, you are always-
a subscriber that cannot be reached.