from the moment i start to decide keeping what my heart has is the moment where my sorrow begin.. i keep it on my own but hindi sa lahat ng oras mapipigil mo ang tibok nang iyong puso .. hindi ko alam kung kailan nag simula ... but it did exist .. minahal kita ng patago dahil alam kong someone owns you.. .. hinayaan at tinulak kita sa iba ... that hurt me most ..
nakita kitang nahulog sa iba but all i can do is smile dahil kaibigan kita kinala.unan pina ramdam kong galit ako sayo .. anong magagawa ko ?? gusto kong umiyak .. magalit sa sarili ko for having this damn feeling .. the sweetness , patagong tinginan ninyo melt me into pieces ..hanggat sa hindi ko na kayanan ang selos at inis sa puso ko .. i walked away .. the last time we talk na received mo ang letter ko for you .. shockingly we have a mutual feelings but kahit mahal kita .. sobrang mahal na parang mababaliw ako .. i choose the right thing to do .. kahit ngayon tumutolo parin ang luha ko dahil sa nakaraan.. noong nalaman ko nah pareho tayo ..honestly naging masaya ako .. naging tayo na parang hindi walang label... it was the best time .. the feeling of loving and be loved.. but kailangan itigil dahil marami tayong masasaktan .. mahal kita mahal na mahal but we dont have a choice dahil we need to wake up from our dreams and face reality... if ever you could read this .. please dont let anyone see my previous letter.. you just don't know how much i love you.. alam mo nandoon ako sa kasal mo .. we talk a day before your wedding and i told you to cherished the girl na dadalhin mo sa altar .. i just dont know how to explain my sorrow and pain . seeing you walk in the aile makes my tears fall without notice, and yes your right nasa church ako noon seeing you walk with her whispering how much great full i am because your such a responsible person and im lucky to like you,,.. sa totoo lang its been a year but the love i have for still in here... alam kong ngayon ay naka move.on kana halata naman but then thank you dahil nanatili parin tayong kaibigan.. as what we promise well see each other in our next life and i hope i could see you earlier .. dahil kahit ngayon i want to run into you and hug you tight .. saying i love you so much .. because looking in your eyes and pretend that im okay is the thing that always kills me.. i know that sabi ko once kulang to sasabihin sayo but i'll do it again even you can't see or hear what i want to say.. I LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE but this would be my last goodbye from my hundred goodbyes before...