The Wedding Part 2

Gazing into each other's, we came closer, and with every millimeter, our Hearts were drawn more and more close. And I just kissed her cheek. That was it.

I didn't know what her expectation was, but for me, a kiss in the cheek was enough.

It was childish. It was like we were in kindergarten. You know, just two little kids, kissing on the cheek. That was just enough. Her future seemed as bright as the sun and as dark as the night considering my presence in it. And suddenly I was absent in the 'here and now'. My mind just zoomed out in a second, and saw how God would see this world, as if it was a tiny grain in His Hand. Somewhere in the void, a voice was heard!

"Of all the people in My life, of all the people whom I have met, of all the people I could Love, Why does it have to be You?"

"Why does it have to be you? Why?"

Of course it was just a simple question. But for me, it pierced right through. As my thoughts got lost, more and more voices started to just whisper more. "What would happen if she knew about your past? What would happen if she knew that one time...."

"Do you think she will truly Love you if she is brought into light of your past?"

It took a moment to realize even a cold-blooded murderer too has cold feet on their wedding! Fear struck as a lightning! And lightning seldom comes alone, thunder accompanies. Now the voices that once whispered, now screamed. More wood is thrown into the fire. A moment passed. Back to the present reality again. I started to wonder which was terrifying. My past? My present reality? Or my future with her?

As we backed out still standing before the congregation, I peaked a look into her. There was that Smile again. There was something about it I couldn't comprehend. For the people it would mean as "The Bride's cute smile of Happiness" but for me it showed a Promise. A Promise of Eternity. Somewhere I could hear Whitney Houston's 'I will always Love You'. That Smile meant "God united You and me, so no matter what I will Love you".

But somewhere in my Heart, there's this struggle. Fear versus Love, Past versus Future.

I wasn't quite sure which side I was. As we turned to walk down the aisle, the congregation stood up, to wish us as we would walk out. At the thought of it, my legs gave up, they felt numb as dead. Instead of their wishes with their smiles, it seemed as if people waiting for their revenge with accusations and pointing fingers. The roses in their hands, seemed like the blood that was crying out and they were waiting to throw at me. As She held my hand, and realized it was as cold as the Arctic, she turned and asked, "Babe, are you alright?". I wanted to scream I ain't. So I whispered "I think I am!". The next thing happened was Unexplainable. She just budged me, held my hand tighter and said, "Oh, jeez, You'll be alright!" with her best possible smile. That moment, the saying "Love drives out all fear" proved to be true. All my questions, accusations, screams were silent as still sea. Now I felt bad I didn't kiss her. My hand turned warm in hers, so did my Heart! I could feel the warmth of her Love. That was enough. My past didn't prick me anymore, as I look into her eyes once again. She said, "Shall We?", then we had the walk of our lives! Jeering people and Flying Roses!

The Beginning had ended quite good!!