The World's A Mess

The thing with problems is that you tell yourself that everything is fine but once you start thinking about it? Suddenly there's a ton of issues and difficulties arising from their graves in which you had buried them hoping that they won't ever haunt you.

  We are dangerous people... Not because of the terror attacks or bombings but because we feel too much and think too much which in turn is a dangerous combination.. Its a second nature at this point of time.. Over calculating how one of our actions  would result in another action and how  the butterfly theory will cause the chaos theory and the destruction of the world, just because we chose to do a thing which supposedly affected something or someone.

The world is messed up because of the people which make  perfect illusions of a picture perfect world when in reality it is a mass of devastation, shattered hopes and promises..

We don't know who we are anymore.. Have you ever felt so insecure that you stopped doing the things you loved? Have you ever felt the gaze of people staring at your back when you get up and do something? Have you ever blamed yourself for everything when the people who hurt you played the victim card when they were the ones who broke you apart?

We die from the inside and yet show everyone that we are okay! That we are strong and that we don't need anyone! We bottle everything up, hide our emotions, pretend that we don't care... Its not healthy but we don't want burden anyone... We don't want to hurt anyone because if we spoke our mind? The words would sting so much that you would fall apart and we don't want that to happen because we have been there and been through that and we..didn't really like it.

You heart sinks when you see something you hadn't expected and it turns your world upside down but you just sit there pretending that everything's fine! There are a million people who think about slitting their wrists and dying because they are supposedly not good enough or not pretty enough or not smart enough.. Expectations break you... Toxic people who stab you in the lungs infinite times and then ask you why you are having trouble breathing break you.. Being the one who cares and seeing people chose someone over you even though you gave your everything breaks you....

But once in a while you meet people, who see beyond your scars, who accept you for the way that you are, who promise to never let go and who make sure that you are okay even when you lie and say that you are just fine.. Sometimes it's okay to feel everything at once when your life's in a catastrophe... Its okay to let your guard down and let someone to take care of you... Its okay to be protected for a change... Its surreal but the reality never made sense before either...

The world is crazy and fucked up and pretty messed up but sometimes life is pretty great and the people who make it great are devilishly amazing so continue to survive because you'll make  it through as you have always!