Then may be someday I'll find the courage to love more freely. May be by then I could tell things that I am not capable to speak at this current state I am in right now. May be I'll be much stronger to let them know how much I care. Then may be I can be more of myself.
Then one day , I can be proud of myself too. I can be whatever I want to be without the pressure on my shoulders. Without the hurts and pains. Less of critics and alligations. Then may be one day, I'll be able to love them back. Without anything that is going to hold me back to my stomach. Then may be I can be more of myself.
By then I can be a little mature. A little wiser and determined to fight for whatever it's worth. Then may be by them I will be able to make myself happy. I may be able to cut the chain of unhappiness that is making me feel miserable and unwanted.
Until then, I just have to survive. I just have to believe that not everyone has the same color of its kind. Not everyone possess the same ugly hearts. No everyone is born to let me suffer and cry.
Until then, I have to trust. I have to put my hopes up and to keep moving forward. Then may be one day when I wake up, I may be able to smile with my happy heart.