I'm here... again...this cold night. I want to cry. I don't know the reason. I think my heart will explote one day. This feeling is too bad. My mind is really confused. I'm angry, sad, weak. I hate this feeling. But I love this seesaw of emotions. It makes me feel alive. Although my sadness is awful, I always think of him. My "other half". That's what I think. I haven't seen him for several days. This makes my heart feel so weak. I feel my heart can't beat. My life has become strange. A lot of awkward things have happened to me. Nobody knows. I'm always laughing. I've cried many times while i'm taking a shower. I feel how the tears start down my cheeks, while are confused with water drops. It hurts a lot. Even being in front of my computer is difficult to me. It remembers me his face... everything makes me remember him. What should I do? I've tried to forget him. All for my well, but is too difficult. I've finished my relationship because of this. He didn't deserve this. I preffer to continue alone with my confused mind... and my broken heart. There are no ways to forget him. Is like if... he got into my being, like blood running through my veins. Is someone who I feel everyday. Is like a tattoo on my mind. He has become someone really special for me. I don't know. What will I do? I'm not to decisive. How will I show him my love? How will I explain him my feelings? How will I tell him that it was love at first sight?...That i've fallen in love with him... I need to tell him, but I don't know how.
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