Today is the first day my heart has became kind of weak since I saw him the first time. My heart didn't beat as the first time I saw him. I don't know what is happening. I'm so confused. I hadn't spoken with him. I think i won't be able to do it. I feel so insecure. My feelings are playing with me now. I've known one guy who wants my love. He says he loves me. I can't answer to their feelings for me. I can't promise him love. I really like another guy. The guy who never has spoken to me, the one who avoids me. The guy who has become a piece in my life even when we hadn't shared any moment togeher. I would like to spend one day... just one day with him. Forget all my fears and get lost in his eyes. I want to try. I want to be the one who can support him in sadness and happiness. I feel sad and weak. Why can't he look at me? My friend had told me to go away and forget him but How can you do that? How can you forget someone who can makes you feel empty if he is not here? Sometimes I've cried. Now I want to cry. He is always in my mind. I can't stop thinking on him. I started to feel ugly. I don't know what to do. I've thought that how he could fall in love with me. I've just become a stupid girl who only breathes to see him. I feel this like death. When I first saw him it was just another boy among those who walked to take the train. Now my feelings became... I don't know how to explain this... I'm not the girl who used to laugh for silly words. This have changed me. He has changed my life. He is like a sunlight. Every morning when I open my eyes the first who appears in my mind is him. What will I do? I think Im getting crazy. I've never fallen in love. And I want him to be the first one. I hope that fate can join us in a second. I hope we will be able to show our feelings each one. I really don't care how many time this will take. I just can say that I want and I love him even if he is ugly, can't speak my language too good, if he is tall... I'll be here for him every time in my life.
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