To A Girl whose name starts with /aR/

It's been 11 months since we met each other inside the four corners of that room. It's not vivid to me how exactly we talked to each other and when was the exact date where we've got to be close yet open with each others problems. At first I thought you are a normal classmate I used to talked to, a normal friend I used to have from the past years. Then suddenly, there went a day where I am sitting next to you while you are standing with the windows at your back and from then, we began to talk to each other the way how I badly want to talk my heart out, the way how I want to tell someone how I feel about my personality and the way where I know no one else could understand me better.

I found out that you are my mirror. You do not physically reflects me but emotionally you are. The world maybe will throw thousands of questions about the technique we know on how to solve a problem, but just be reminded that we both have each others' back. I got'cha! I am truly grateful to ever meet such a suicidal girl just like me. I know there will come a day where we could be okay or even better. Let's just patiently wait for that moment to come across in front of us. Remember what I told you? 

"Promise me you're not going to die. Promise me that you will not die today. Not today, not even tomorrow, and not even on the following weeks, months and years.You should wait bitch! Wait until your senses turn clear, wait until you blur turns into crystal clear and wait until I run to you. Wait for me and don't be selfish. Tell me when and where are you going to end this life given to you, so that I can fly and be with your side for the last minute of your life. I should at least hear your last words in person, not read it on any letters that you will soon leave inside your drawer. I should at least make you laugh before you go, I should at least treat you before you left for good. Most of all, before you surrender, I should ask you first about the place where to go, when I too, have decided to follow you."