To All The Boys Who Think It's Fine Hurting Me

You
hurt me
and
told me
not to
cry.

Let me
stab you
and
I'll
tell you
not to
bleed.

Is it because I'm eerie? Or I am patient? Or I am kind? Or it's just I have the looks of someone who deserves to bleed after letting the blood rush in her skin till all that is left with her are fresh wounds wishing to be sealed because they are ashamed to be seen? Do I like someone who is fine to get hurt?

I don't know what makes you think that it's fine to cross your eyes into mine. Doesn't you know that the rounded shape of it makes me want you to love me? But the truth is you doesn't have any intention to love me back if I do.

I don't know what makes you think that it's fine to lock me inside your arms, letting me rest in your chest, feeling your heartbeat all at once, like it was my favorite song I'd always want to hear. Doesn't you know that it makes me feel of wanting to stay there forever? But the truth is you doesn't have intention of staying by yourself.

I don't know what makes you think that it's fine to brush your hands to my strangled long hair, making me feel like your touch would make the broken million pieces fall into their rightful places. Doesn't you know that it makes me feel right, it makes me feel that there's us that's real? But the truth is everything is wrong and haux.

You hurt me like you are used of doing that. I am a breakable glass fell from a pile of other broken glasses. Finding my other parts, searching for the things that can still be repaired. Those that are not too damaged, those that can still be glued to my broken halves.

To the boys who think it's fine hurting me, well it's not. It's a tragedy to forget every pain and to start liking someone else again, for he may be just like the boy who hurt me before, who caused me pain and ignore me not even knowing that it weights me everyday.

Please, stop and just walk out from my life before you even become part of it. If you're just going to left me hanging and floating, I'd rather eat, sleep or surf the internet.