To the girl who's trying to move on

You try to act as if everything is okay. 

You pretend unaffected when his name was mentioned by your friends. 

You just show that you don't care when his post appeared on your feed. 

You hide your pain behind every bittersweet smile written on your face. 

You just keep pretending that there's nothing wrong, 

that you are better than before, that you are more than okay, 

that you had totally moved on but you couldn't fool the world with those pair of eyes. 

You were betrayed by your own eyes. 

You're struggling so much. You're trying so hard but you always fail. 

You still check his profile every hour of the day. 

Small things still remind you of him. 

You still search for his face in the crowd. 

You still think of him when you woke up and even before you sleep. 

You miss him so much, don't you? 

You had sworn a lot of times that you'll forget him. 

You even wrote a goodbye letter but never been sent. 

You have lots of words to say but you don't know how to tell. 

You still hope that he will come back someday. 

You still hope despite the hurt and pain. 

You still hope for you know that maybe with only one percent probability he is also doing the same.