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To live or not to live

I do not know yet that time the dangers of the world outside the womb, and, yet here I am struggling to exist in this very confined fluid sac. All I know is I want to live. I want to live even though life is full of uncertainty.


I hear a faint voice outside my world,

it was struggling to utter a word.

It is full of whimper and agony.

She is talking to a boy called Anthony.


That is also the first time I felt her pain, when the boy said "I don't want it".

"It" a pronoun referring to his unborn child, to me. She has been speechless, unable to reply to her beloved.

It was a mistake. I am the fruit of their mistake.

The proof of what should not happen.


Suddenly, I felt reality is gripping away from me, the warm surrounding started to get cold. A thong is aimed in ripping my hand, and her eyes are not dampened with tears but with numbness.


But something forbade it, a screaming sound of a car come forth and yell of the people is all over. My fate had not fated to end.


Miracles do come true. I have been named Matthew.