It happened so fastㅡfalling inlove with you. And you couldn't believe it, too. You even said that this is just an infatuation. That everything I feel for you will be gone soon. To be honest? I felt bad. I was hurt because you were underestimating my feelings for you. It's not 'love', yes. But it's not just 'like', too. I don't know what it is. All I know is that, I am beyond happy when I get to talk to you.
Talking to you made my heart ache and skip beats. You made me the happiest girl on Earth and I am saying this without the slightest bit of exaggeration. I am smiling like an idiot whenever I remember you, and your handsome face. Whenever I am missing you, I play those VMs you've sent until the last percent of my phone's battery, and by doing that, I miss you even more.
For a few months you were in my life, you saved me. You never knew it, but you did. I felt genuine happiness with you.
And I am silently hoping we'll going to end somewhere great.
Now, I have to admit it. I am hurting. But Baby, don't get me wrong. It's my fault because I hoped. I assumed. I gave special meaning to your hellos, good mornings, and good nights. I expected something more, even if you already said that we should take this all slow to know where this is going. You already warned me that this may not gonna work the way I want to. But I still let myself fall deeply, and deeply, until keeping my head above the water isn't possible anymore. Silly girl.
I know maybe it's too early to be feeling this way, but I guess this is really how it feels. After all, you can't lose someone who was never really yours.
It's difficult to get used to days without you again. I don't know how do I look the roadsigns the way I looked at them before, without remembering you. Black-rimmed glasses. Messed-up hair. Your favorite white shirt. Coffee. Instagram stories. And many more. Gosh. You gave me so much to remember. How can I possibly forget you?
Baby, I want more time with you. I want more memories with you. But now, I just have to be happy and at ease with what we had.
So I guess, there's nothing else to do but to move forward. Without you. But please do keep in mind that my love is here. Take care of yourself and be happy. Always.