TO THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY

       I remember late last year was the time I first saw you, I was like "whatever " but there's something in your smile that made me draw deep into you, where the way your eyes sparkled that day and put thousand city lights on shamed, when suddenly your laugh became my favorite music that I want to hear each passing weeks. You gave me this green signal, treat me like a princess, show things that I thought I would never saw. I was so happy that time,  I felt like I'm on cloud nine and fall in to you completely but things changed you've changed, I'm starting to see red flag, starting to feel you're taking steps backward. I so confused but not until I've learned the truth, you where with her, no let me correct it you was really with her in the first place. So I reevaluate everything, every single damn thing that made me believe that there was an "US" and trying to convince myself  that maybe somehow I  just read all the line incorrectly, misunderstood all your actions towards me and fooling myself there was something. It was my fault, I didn't take cautions towards you and I'm not OK with that because it hurt so much, it hurt that I learned to smile in front of you, learned to say I'm fine even if I'm not, lied to everyone asking what happened between us but the worst thing was I'm lying to myself, I'm fooling myself saying this was just a affection But the truth was I love you and I really do, I love you enough to let you go, love that enough to made me watched you from far away, love that enough to respect her and your happiness and love that open the door to love myself more, so I'll be fine, maybe not today but definitely in the future and when I see you again I will just smile to myself and tell  "yeah that's the one that got away "