To The One Who Is Hurting Me Right Now

Dear J

I started to get this feelings of affection since the ride we are both involved.
I tried to stop but the moment we get closed to each other, I just said nevermind.
I enjoyed spending time with you.
It feels like the cherry blossom grew more of it pink leaves that turns beautiful days.
But right now, why all of a sudden?. Why?

It's been awhile since you everything have changed
Maybe you don't notice it but I do.
You were someone I used to talk to and enjoyed late night concersations.
I don't know what happened to what I thought could be us.
You don't respond to my messages same as before.
You suddenly make me feel unimportant
And that hurts me so much
It is like my heart was stabbed a million times

Maybe it is me who should be blame for my own downfall,
I keep on making myself believe that what we had will lead to us in the future.
I assumed too much and even I have said that this is nothing, I wanted to tell that I never limit myself so I get attached to you this much.
You were to sweet, to good to be truw till I realized that you were like that to every girl you talk to.

I thought of it already too late, I fall really deep.
And I can say that this is really difficult for we breath the same air each time.
Ignoring you was a hard thing to do,
causing the Cherry Blossom inside me to fade away.
I could say that that Cherry Blossom Tree was me, grown with pink leaves that symbolizes love amd calmness but is tear down by loggers chopped into pieces and thrown away into the lake of despair.
I know I dont have the right to feel this way
but it really makes me cry river of tears.

In spite of this, I can say that I learned a lot from this experience.
Still you were a wonderful person I have ever known
This will be added to my book of memoir located inside my mind.
I know from this moment I will be able to start over again with acceptance.
Even if I get my eyes blurry, to my heart this will I burry.