To you, 20 years from now

 Just like every other mornings I had, I'd be woken up by the sound of my alarming clock, I'd get up then go outside and check the letters from our mail box. There are lots of letters than usual. I received like over 30 letters that came from the same person, most of the letters were written a while back now, but there's this one written just recently, a promised person she addresses me, and to me, she wrote:

    Dear promised guy,

  It has been tough working now that we're adults, huh? Gotta work hard each day then fall asleep late.

I don't quite remember this person, but I can't agree more with that statement.

 Anyway, how've you been? I know I'm not so good, but you know, every time I feel tired, I try to remember the times of our childhood, they somehow relieve my stress. We've been away from each other for so long, do you still remember me?

Barely.

 I was your friend. You'd always come by our house and play. We played tag once then you slipped and fell on the mud, you cried so hard it was so funny. Do you remember that?

Oh, that takes me back, I had mud in my mouth too.. I remember now.

Or that one time, when we played hide and seek and you hid under your bed ,but because I couldn't find you, I went home, you stayed there till lunch until your mom came to find you, sorry 'bout that. Do you remember that?

I remember there were mosquitoes down there, haha.

 Or that time when my family was moving out of town, and you promised you'd come find me no matter what? That we'd meet again and be together? Do you remember?

I...I didn't , not until I read this letter...

 I saw you cry from our windshield as we left. We were still kids so I never got your number, I didn't have time to talk in the internet either cause I had no phone so this is the only thing I could do. You know, I kept sending you letters but you never reply, didn't you get them?

I'm sorry...

I am hoping beyond hope that you won't forget me that's why I kept sending them. Have you read them?

Gosh ...

If you are, please reply, cause it feels to me like you've forgotten about me ...

I can't anymore....

I love you even though so many years passed you know.  

I'm sorry...

I love you even now, I always have..

I'm the worst.

How about you?

                                                                                                            Yours truly,

                                                                                                               Ana

On my left hand next to my middle finger, around it rests a ring, and inside this house, there's a woman who wears one too. I promised this person she'd be wearing that ring, but right now, she doesn't know that the person she's waiting for won't come back. I sit here all happy with my wife and she's somewhere out there still waiting.. for me..

I wrote a long letter about how an idiot I was for forgetting something important and my wife was okay with it .

I'm sorry Ana. I also loved you, but right now, there's someone else who I love so much more. Forgive me...