Truth In Your Eyes

My short story

I don't know when this started, but i just knew from the very first day that I saw you, I knew that i was going to love you someday when i got to know you more. After that day, that i saw you we started to talk to each other on the phone or message each other every single day. I got to know you a lot better, and this is what i found out about you, you were a drummer, you had 3 siblings, you were the third one, and you told me you were a legend.  sounds sarcastic, well you are one. When months passed, we both gotten a little closer, and I have fallen deeply for you. I fell for your actions and your sweet words, and mostly i fell for your personality, cause you showed me that not all guys can break a girls heart, but I was wrong.....

Months passed and we've talked lesser than before, you've changed but i didn't. Then one day you asked me if I liked you, I told you everything and I wasn't ready for your reply. You told me that i had to move on, but i knew you were hurt too, I can see it in your eyes that you love me too but you just cant admit it because you were scared to love again. You told me that you cried that night after I admitted that i liked you, don't i mean something to you? was that all? how could you do this to me? you knew my past, you knew everything but you still chose to hurt me. 

Weeks passed after that incident and we barely talk now, things changed, but I still loved you. We got a little awkward at school, I always caught you looking at my way, your eyes tell me everything that you didn't want to say but i'm done hoping. I chose to let you go, even if it kills me inside. I didn't even know we were 3rd cousins, it was too late for us to know, because i was already INLOVE with you. 

I only love once-in-a-blue-moon like if I'm attached to you its going to be you and always you. I'll stay Loyal to you and support you all the way. I pray to God everyday that this time, I'll be happy. That this time someone would love me.  

I had a dark past, I even committed suicide to someone I loved.  He was the first one, and you were my second, I learned a lot of things, but i never used them this time. because i knew you were a nice guy, and i thought you wouldn't hurt me back. but you did. 

I gave you my trust, but look what you did, you lied to me, all you said were lies. Just because you knew I loved you, your going to make me a fool now, just because i have a heart that forgives and trust easily, your going to do that to me. You broke every promise you said to me and you broke every single thing.... but after all you've done, why do I still love you?? 

I knew one thing, that every time I look into your eyes, we always had that spark, I knew you loved me back, but i know too, that this wasn't the time for our love.....