Turning point

I am not okay.
Pansin mo ba? Ramdam mo ba?
ALAM MO BA?

Kasi kung hindi mo alam,
Bakit ?
Bakit hindi mo pansin, bakit hindi mo ramdam, bakit hindi mo alam ?

-yan yung lagi kong tanong sa sarili ko everytime na feeling ko i was left alone, or nag iisa.

Yan yung mga tanong na gusto kong i voice out sa kanya, sayo, sa kanila pero hindi ko magawa.
I cannot even tell them
"Hoy! Nasasaktan ako"

Because suddenly, or madalas
Mararamdaman ko na lang na
I feel unwanted, unloved, left alone,
Tapos may insecurities pa ko, nag seselos
And i dont know why? How?

And now i am not sure if can trust myself too.
Sometimes i betray ME...
And sometimes i dont know who I am.
Its funny but sometimes i hate myself
Its crazy but sometimes i let myself go crazy... 

I lost confident. (Kayo din ba?)
From high to low.
Kung sa sasakyan from full tank to drain.

At pag mag isa na ako at nag mumuni muni, i see myself crying in the middle of nowhere where the rain are keep on falling. Where the wind is blowing hard, and the nights is endless.
That is my life since the day i can,t find the answer to my question "WHY".

Until....

Lahat naman tayo may turning point eh
Especially pag nakilala mo na SYA.
Pag tinanggap mo na Sya bilang tagapag ligtas mo
Pag itinira mo na sa puso mo si Jesus Christ.

Simula nung nag seek na ako sa Kanya (hindi ko matandaan kung kelan nagsimula basta ang dami ko ng tanong na hindi masagot o walang sagot sa dati kong buhay)

Unti unti kong nakita yung daan palabas sa madilim na gubat.
Dahan dahan ko nang nakikita yung asul na langit.
At ngayon patuloy pa din akobg lumalaban sa dating ako pero yung good news?
Sobrang positive na yung nakikita ko.
Ou minsan bumabalik ako sa dating ako pero binibisita ko lang nu!
Ayoko ng tambayan. Baka na naman kasi maadik ako ule sa ganung buhay oh edi kaya matrap na naman ako dun tapos babalik na naman ako sa dating ako na ang tagal ko ng nakalimutan.

Alam nyo ba when you start to know HIM you will find true happiness.
You will be Loved
Through HIM  makikilala mo yung mga totoong tao sayo.
Madami kang marerealize sa buhay.

May secret ako.
Umiiyak pa din ako pag mag isa ako pero pinag kaiba na nga lang ngayon kinakausap ko SYA.
Nag susumbong ako, nag kukwento, nagtatanong ako. LAHAT sinasabi ko sa KANYA.
Mapa love life man yan, mapa away sa friends, mapa problema sa family man at minsan kahit tungkol pa yan sa kasayahan i am learning to tell Him.

Kahit hindi ko naman sabihin, nakikita naman nya ehh.
Saka mas magaan pala pag sinabi mo lahat sa Kanya.

Guys if you feel lost like me before try to Accept Him in your life. Seek him. Love Him.
Sobrang sarap sa pakiramdam.
And to end this,

Let me take this oppurtunity to share How HE Love us.

It all starts with accepting Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. Jesus Christ provides a relationship with the Father and eternal life through His death on the cross and resurrection (Rom. 5:10).

Romans 10:9 promises, “If you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.” If you have not yet begun your personal relationship with God, understand that the One who created you loves you no matter who you are or what you’ve done. He wants you to experience the profound depth of His care.

OUR GOD IS GREATER THAN OUR PROBLEM.
Love you guys😘