Unfinished hopes!

12/06/23, 10:15pm- 13/06/23,2:15am (Night shift)
I'll be fucked up if you can't be right here...oooooooo oooooooo!
As the music seemed to be diminuendo...
I slirrrrped the coffee in the gloomy winter night...
As the second floor had general wards and special wards with two patients, rest of the floors were darkened , pharmacy was in the ground floor with a caretaker besides the secretary!
Sec floor was very calm and doomed at around 10:45pm...There were only us, two of those working staff sisters and me.
It was a long silence breaking  voice, "Ma'am, are you committed? Sister questioned.
I was bemused at the question thrown,yet
Me- May be, I dunno (I perplexed)
Sister- That means, you're committed? She exclaimed.
Me- Not clear, it's just one sided and he's clueless about my whereabouts!
Sister- Ma'am but you should confess atleast once.
Me- It's not easy, I'm never that brave to even stare his eyes and speak. Infact I ignore his eyes to escape fears.
Sister - That's true ma'am, we can't look at the one's peeper whom we love, straight.
Me- Exactly, that's why I never or would not defy to confess.
Sister- but ma'am atleast once, you must give a try.
Me- I have planned twice already to do so, but It was all a flop. Later, I juz surrendered everything under God's flow.
Sister- Ma'am, even I loved a guy so immensely that I never dared to speak about my emotions , I did the same god thing, yet it never moved even a millimetres ahead unless I tried.
Me- Yeah but lemme wait for the day I meet him and divulge into his eyes without a fright and confess as I never believed in texts or calls.
Sister- That's very true ma'am, we cannot see those emotions if it's virtual but I pray the day to come very soon ma'am.
I was on cloud infinite for her words of generosity to pray for my love.
Ma'am if it's successful, please do call me to see you both together as I'm already flattered for the pic of you both.
Me- Sure to call you if it really happens but I'm out of expectations.
Sister - But I hope it happens as how you wish it to be ma'am.
Me- He'll be mine if he really should be, will see if the day we meet arrives !

As we had chitchat for hours, the weather became frigid making us bit dozing off.
Sisters went to thier beds for a nap as I went inside my room to rest dipping inside his memories by gazing at his face in the mobile, unable to look at his eyes with the heavy heart and filled eyes, I snoozed off! Just like any other day with all these unfinished hopes!