i sat beside the dusty windows and stared at the rolling clouds covering the pale blue sky.
i felt the silence and deafening peace
then i remembered the unending sorrow masked under the bliss of the moment
it felt familiar
i looked at my aging hands
crumbling with misery and lost hope
then i felt the numbness of your touch, your rough skin, against mine
the shape of your heart reflecting the way you held my hands that night you bid me goodbye
it felt familiar
the moment passed by like a blink an eye
just like how you came into my life,
and disappeared when i'm almost ready to choose you over everything
you came to me like a storm in a bright day
and you left leaving your traces behind me
i was your first, you were my last
you were my last but i was never in your choices
you said i can be who i want to be
but you lied
i wanted to be yours but it never happened
it never happened
nothing happened