What it feels

What does it feel to be treated by the right guy?

I ask myself what is the feeling of being treated by the right guy a guy who will be with you and grow old with you. A guy who is their thru your ups and downs. What is the feeling? Yeah, I’m asking myself.

Keeping this in my head is way to heavy I’ve been into many relationships and no one becomes the right guy and every time they broke up with me I got a lot of questions to myself yeah to myself, not for them.

First I’m a not good enough? I keep on asking myself that because I gave everything and do everything I can to be a better girlfriend

Did he really love me? Yes did he?? I don’t know the answer anymore yes? But it was only from the beginning when the months passed it feels like he started to get cold and change.

Sabe nga sa isang movie “ panget bako pkapalit palit bako?” yhea it was funny yet a sad phrase to hear. Kapalit palit bako? Ganun lang ba kadali?

And much more it kills you slowly and the anxiety of it is keeping you awake at 3 am in the morning and you don’t have a choice to get yourself together again. And fall asleep; imagine if you are with the right person will you still cry at 3 am in the morning? Will you still wait for a 1-hour reply that you send early in the morning? Will you?

But they say there is no perfect guy yeah and I agree with that. I remember the saying “if it’s not hurting you it’s not love it’s a game” but hearing that phrase feels like you’re a freaking masochist.

Yeah love without pain is not love that’s why you need to choose a right person who is worth the pain and efforts