I thought then that love was as simple as “Hi”
Now I know how hard and long it takes to recieve back a “Hello"
I thought then that love was as easy as telling them straight about how you feel, keeping it cool and acting like it's no big deal
Now I know that after confessing, its so damn hard to keep still
I thought then that love was always being together
That the more things you do together, the more time you spend with each other would assure you of this new and trendy concept of 'forever'
But now I know that sticking through, no matter what, is what actually matters
I thought then that love was always being happy
Now I know it’s laughing in between tears
It's being able to smile after screaming your lungs out during a fight and seeing how much more beautiful the other person is when they're angry
I thought then that love was lying as long as it means protecting them
Now I know that it’s telling them the truth regardless of the pain -
.. regardless of the consequences that'll follow
.. regardless of being unsure
I thought then that love was about gifts and celebrations
dates, adventures, and constant communication but
Now I know its about forgiving and not setting any expectations
It's not even about constant communication - NO
.. because constant communication is nothing but a misconception
YES - communication is vital but with constant preceding it everything goes down to uncertainty
With constant before communication things become suffocating and exhausting that you end up panting, eager for space .. for freedom
Sometimes, all we need is a little bit of distance
Time apart to realize the significance ..
- of silence.
I thought then that love makes you feel so light and fresh,
like that feeling you get after you just brushed your teeth or when getting out of the shower
Now I know how it buries you slowly, deep into the ground,
resembling those nights you spent alone in bed thinking about all the answers to a million questions you still haven't found
I thought then that love lasts long and never fails
Now I know it’s just not like the fairytales
I thought then that love was about making many memories that you could look back to one day - maybe a few stories you could tell your grandchildren
Now I know its living in the moment while you still can because one day you're going to look back and regret not appreciating what you had instead
I thought then that love required no decision-making and that you just had to go with the flow
Now I know the challenge of whether it’s your brain or your heart you'll follow
I thought then that love was pushing yourself to the farthest that you can go
Now I know love is learning when to stop, when to let go
I thought then that love was saying “I love you” all the time
Now I know how those three words could be the biggest lie
I thought then that love meant laughing your heart out
Now I know it means trusting someone enough to pour your heart out
I thought then that love was painless
Now I know it's about sacrifices
Letting them in, allowing access to the deepest parts of your soul
I thought then that love meant being calm and peaceful
Now I know it's going crazy and wild and at times, bending rules
Because whether or not you agree, no one has ever really mastered the game
We are all still constantly learning how to play
I thought then love makes you a better person
Unfortunately, there will be times when it'll make you look like the biggest fool - stupid, vulnerable ..
I thought then that love could easily be forgotten
I guess now I know I thought wrong.. or maybe just differently.