When I said No More

How many times did I try to escape from you?

Countless.

How many times did you ask why?

Countless.

How many times did I try to leave?

Countless.

How many times did you really stop me from leaving?

Zero.

It's so funny to think that among all those countless times when I tried to leave you, I always end up coming back.

And what's funnier is that throughout those times when you asked me why I became cold, I never really heard you say, "Please, don't leave".

And the funniest thing is that here I am thinking that all this time, you never really wanted me to leave. When in fact, you never cared at all.

But this time, let me tell you this.

"No More"

I'm sure you'll be right next to me again and ask me why am I so cold.

This time, I won't give you an answer. 

Not because I am an illogical person but because I am logical enough to save myself from the effort of explaining things that you won't really understand.

Or should I say, you don't really care about.

No more.

No more sleepless nights of talking to you when all your promises remained pointless in time.

No more consistent greetings because you won't even give me a reply.

No more asking of how do you do when I'm not fine at all.

No more late night flashbacks because they are all just part of history.

No more looking back because you never really called my name whenever I walk out.

No more open doors for you because if you really want to be with me, you will open it yourself in the first place.

No more twilight tears because you will never shed for me.

No more apologies when I left, because you never really noticed my absence.

No more Hellos because you never acknowledge my existence.

No more "Okay. We're friends" because I never looked at you that way.

No more sweet talks for you because all I can taste right now is the bitterness of the brewed coffee I drink in the wake of my own feelings.

No more "I love you"s because you only play with it like a stattered Romeo and Juliet tragedy on stage.

No more "I'm just here for you" because this time I need to be here for myself.

No more "I care for you" because this time myself needs me the most.

No more YOU because I realized that ME should come first.

No more US because there was never an us.

No more dreams about you because my own dreams are waiting for me above the dark blue sky.

No more starlight in your eyes for they don't belong to you. They belong to the sky.

No more holding on for it is time for letting go.

No more passing by because this will be my last goodbye.

No more farewell hugs and kisses for it became toxic to a heart torn to pieces.

No more stupid thoughts of you for love is now finally adjourned.

The good game played is now game over.

Let us now be free. 

Both you and me.

To the man I adore.

It's finally No More.

No more...