When you like someone, your heart flutters. It learns how to momentarily skip a beat. When you love someone, you face pain. Oh well, that's how love is. You keep thinking of him, you keep dreaming of him, you keep longing for him and you smile sweetly just for him. Out of this world girls learn how to put on some make up, dress properly and act sweetly. Yeah right. Falling in love is a piece of cake for women. You know what's hard for them? It is the fact that they can't express how they feel for someone.
When women fall in love, they'll just stare at the guy for a very long time, smile at her own imaginations, keeps her own distance, and avoids eye contact from the boy. Simply saying, they shouldn't say it first. No. They just can't say it. that's it. From afar, when a girl falls in love for a man first, she learns how to be patient. She'll just be a distance away to wait for him to notice her. She'll just be few blocks away from his reach. She steps one step forward and ten steps backward. The world says, a woman should never be the one to admit the love. That is why she waits. And she won't notice how time flies. All she would know is that every time she wakes up from a painful night of tears, SHE'S STILL IN LOVE WITH THE MAN. Her heart was still in the hands of a man who won't even take a look at her.
But the pain of a girl doesn't end there. What's worst? It is the time when she feels like the boy has finally noticed her. It would make her heart skip a beat. But just for a second. Afterwards, it breaks the heart apart. He noticed but he never cares. he noticed but he didn't say anything. He noticed but he still won't look her way. He noticed but he would tell her to avoid him. He noticed but never loved her. He noticed but it seems he doesn't. It's not that there's someone else. It's just that he hates her that much that he's ready to forget everything they had before. He hates her that much that he chose to start the new year with a new life without her.
And now, she doesn't know her place anymore. She doesn't know if she's still a part of his life. She has no idea. The only thing she knew was, she was hurt. Ow. It hurts. And she hated herself. Not for loving him and ended up crying. She hates herself more and more and more and more everyday for despite all the pain she had to bear, there's still a bunch of pain coming her way. Why? There's only one answer. SHE STILL LOVES HIM.