Who never had a self-respect

[Thanks for bearing with the edited version everyone, new lines added in the second last para if you guys want to save the pain of searching it] 

I was trying to pull out my luggage as my train halted at its destination stop. My phone was buzzing with a creep's message whom I had accidentally trusted years ago. I ignored at first as usual, deciding if he bombards it with messages I going to hand it off to a better person ;But then deciding that it would be better to handle it own my own as I don't want anyone else to face a stupid psychopath because of me. So I tried texting back something like 'leave me alone' which he can't do ever. Despite my efforts to not read his texts I accidentally saw something like him bragging about he got a job and blah, blah, blah. Though all of it is fake, and he knows I will never accept any of it but that its fake, still I  don't understand  why should he bother about my life when I haven't even bothered him with a single text, fake or real, until unless he has dared to ping me with his unnecessary shits every now and then. 

Every time I feel that things are over and he has got some brains finally( why the hell do I even try to think he can ever develop some head.LOL), he would hunt me down with his stalking skills and I'd be Kaboom.

I'm lucky to have such kind friends who don't disturb me unnecessarily with the messages he conveys to them hoping like a real fathead that they going to remember any of what he said after they switch his message tab off. 

Anyways, my roommate is also a kind person so she told me at last when she remembered that the creep had wanted me to know that he had cracked CAT with 96% score and got call from 'all' the IIMs (Did I tell you that my elder brother got 98% and still wasn't lucky enough to get call from ALL IIMs), and now he's preparing for GATE.  Also this extreme creepy 'prodigy' who is preparing for GATE and CAT at once, who gave AFCAT long back but his medical checkup got delayed due to Ram Rahim scandal upto more than one year(what is connection between government exam and Ram Rahim anyway) , also has  multiple job offers. Including ELF(name changed),the reputed dream company where he once said to another friend of mine that its too hard to work there "standing for long hours in roof". Well, its an air conditioned building where even the peons are inside cool walls, what's his post that makes him stand under the sun?!

Nevertheless coming back to topic, my friend told me this wonderful news which we all know is stupidly false that he cracked CAT and we had a good laugh over it and then went to bed. 

Things came back to my mind as always happens at 3 a.m. How another girl almost fell in his trap before me but escaped luckily(should have learnt). How he flirted on some cheap fb page with other girls and then abused and blamed me (which he still does like a true dickhead). 

And all the time long ago I felt him as a friend I fell for his lies. His special friend named Tim(name changed) called and abused me and I endured, he kept me in lies and I endured. He called me names and I endured, he fired me up when he abused my race. though I really doubt his background that failed to teach him sanity and respect for his fellow countrymen, specially women.

But the part where I won is that I moved on while he remained tangled in my memories, TRYING TO PROVE HIS WORTHLESSNESS THROUGH SOME VOID LIES.

I never tried to show off my worth or achievements to him. He did(though he never did anything of what he claims and why he still tries to be a jerk of fun to my friends I dunno)

When you repeatedly try to prove your value to someone who doesn't care proves you are being a fool to yourself.

When you try to stalk someone's privacy you prove you are a CREEP. Who would be better off shut in some cupboard for the whole world's sake.

I have known him well enough to know his profiles (be it social or blogging )would be half or even more filled with girls, charming pretty ladies who are unlucky enough to fall in his worthlessness. Creeps are creepy indeed!

When I had struggled out of the train I found he had blocked me before I  could to his new number. Sigh of relief. My pain and work was reduced. Finally no more tolerating him, he had done a gloriously intelligible thing for the first time. Without even reading his lies,sorry texts,whatever they were, I deleted everything and marched towards the cab. Only to discover today, that alas he's stalking,sorry following me still on my writing site (facepalm).

But then look at the brighter side of it girls. All of you who understand my pain of being 'creep' out, you have fought a battle, found your worth, took your pieces and moved on while he still keeps revisiting the same battlefield again and again in vain with useless weapons that's long over and forgotten. YOU are the winner as you understand you are special and don't need to prove it to any liar no matter how he tries to degrade you in front of your friends or in your own eyes. And you realize how true your friends are who trust you, not a joker with vulnerable female followers on social sites. If he's repeatedly trying to prove his success and value he's still moving round and round over the same wound and accident which you are done with long ago, forgetting about his worth in his own eyes, else why should he try to remind or prove himself to someone else so desperately that he takes resort to infinite lies.

"Hah! You don't have anything to prove yourself," he may chuckle; just nod gracefully like you always do and walk off kicking him in the guts if you want. You don't 'need' to prove anything. You don't need him at all in anyway, be it in life or proofs. But he needs....your aura still lasts in his memories. He needs to prove worthlessly his worthiness. He still 'needs' you in some way or the other. He still dreams of you in his life. And so you win, 'cuz you are out of those bubbles of insecurities. You are independent and on your own wings. 

To the boy just shout out loud:-Don’t know what you are trying to prove through ‘following’ me time and again; perhaps it is not clear to your tiny-head that no words of yours are going to be conveyed to me. EVER.

Stop stalking me if you can and if you have any self-respect left, which you never had actually. So, I know you will keep following stalking and replying to me. You are long ago out of my world, faster than you came in it which you never did actually; out of my world in any way possible. Be it revenge or any other way, I don’t consider you even capable to be made an Enemy. You are just an attention-seeker, nothing else, trying to prove yourself in vain. Maybe you are some name to your friends and others, but here you are just a LIAR who Lost it all.

In this case, my dear girl, you are the winner.While the stalking fox loses it all.