WHY AM I LIKE THIS?

I do not know what is the best thing to do

I wonder how you are doing

I wonder where you might be now

I wish to call you

I wish to speak with you

I wish to do the touches we have done

But I cannot even make a call

Nor send you a message. 

We are both temporary

We are both not meant for each other

We are both of the different level

We have years space between us

But why? Why am I like this?

Every time I am outside

I wish it is your car as white as dove I have seen

I wish it was you who got a similar tattoo

I wish it was your scent I have smelled

I wish it was you who I just bumped into

I wish it was you who opened the door for me

Even a message 

Even a call

Just give me a damn sign that you still want me

Because I do not know

Why and how

I have seemed to be wanting you

I do not know if I have fallen in love with you

Maybe this is just purely a desire of what I am feeling

Maybe I am just missing you

But even though it is just a "maybe"

I am sure I am going crazy

Just watching your face on the screen

Reading articles about you

I have not wondered of how lucky I was

To be kissed by your lips

To be held by your arms

To be able to spend time with you

To be hugged tightly 

Those lips who uttered my name 

Those arms making me feel so cared

I long for you, please come back to me

I await for your return Leon.