Why I am still alive..?

WHY...

I commit suicide .

Not ones, many times

cut my wrist, tie a rope around my neck, pointing knife on my stomach.

I don't know why I'm still alive

maybe I'm just strong that nobody can drag me down.

But no, I'm down always

people insult me always

they hate me,but still I love them

I'm kind but the fact that I don't understand

why they always get mad at me

it's because I'm not beautiful? I'm dirty? I'm not rich?

But still I love them

I am not a demon

I love god,but I'm just sad; alone.

©Siddharth