Write for a no-name relationship

Have you ever secretly loved someone? Like, okay, we are just friends, nothing special and the relationship never ever started?

But you keep holding on too long, hoping that someday, he will finally get it. That maybe oneday, there will be a chance for us, even a smallest one. But then the cold reality breaks everything. You suddenly realize that you can not continue that way, and somehow he's already "moved on". You stop daydreaming about him, about what could have happened, about what you two could have been. You start feeling the deep pain inside your heart, but you just can not express it publicly because there is simply "nothing between us". You just sit there, silently hope that one day, everything will be okay.

You feel yourself so stupid for investing too much into that 'no-name thing'. You keep questioning yourself how he never noticed, or what signs you read wrong all these time.

I know how it feels like. And i know how much it hurts. Because i'm in it. Still trying to be strong. Still answering his texts with excitement and pretend like everything is just beyond good. But totally broken inside. I think it's not really anyone's fault to blame, not his, not mine neither. But it takes time to get over. Be patient, because i'm trying too.